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Everyday, I have a choice
I’m utterly, and completely overwhelmed. Life is hard. I’m sad. I’ve been given an Earthly hand that wasn’t fair, and I would do ANYTHING to change it, but I simply can’t. Somehow, I have to live...
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I can only imagine
“I can only imagine…” are words I hear a lot. They are said by someone who is trying, wanting, and needing to comfort or help. They are honest and real and don’t offend me at all. I think it’s...
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Time – the concept of – has changed
Time, the concept of, has permanently changed in my world. It is no longer a series of events in the past and hopes and dreams of the future. Instead, it feels like this weird continuum of past and...
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A Letter: The REAL lessons I hope my kids learn at camp
Dear Kids, For the first time in our lives, I dropped BOTH of you off at summer camp. I missed you before I even left the parking lot. I kept waiting for the counselors to invite me to spend the week...
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Grief is…
Grief is feeling happy one moment, and then absolutely sad the next. Grief is moving forward, while loving the past. Grief is full of unanswered questions and mysteries. Grief is trying to silence the...
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A Terrible Start, but Better than the Past
I woke up on the first day of school determined to push the past out of my head. I was determined to be everything my kids needed: a normal mom who was going to help them get ready for a new year of...
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My girl may not own the field, but at least she is kind
My girl begged to play soccer this year. I hesitated knowing that her wanting to do it in the past is a better thought than reality, but she deserved another chance. I signed her up to play, as well...
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Cancer is a sad word
I wanted to show the horror show that is cancer. I wanted you to be aware of how devastating it is to watch a loved one go from the “Life of the Party” to a “memory in your heart.” I have no words. I...
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Photographs Lie and Tell the Truth
I can’t show you the ugliness of cancer. I can’t show it to you because I didn’t photograph it as we lived that horrifying experience. Scott was a private person, who didn’t want his struggles...
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As I stare at the Christmas tubs
I slowly walk down the stairs, step by step and the closet feels extremely far away. I make my way through the finished basement and end up in the storage room. I enter, and quickly find the tubs I...
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The Price of Change
I’d be lying if I said I loved our life the way it was. I wanted it to change. I’m a free spirit, on the move, and always need to feel like we are moving forward. Staying still hurts my soul, I...
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Most days, I fail
Years before, when life was perfect, before I knew how perfect it was, I often let myself get overwhelmed with being a grown-up. My husband, partner in crime, often had the words to lift me up, help...
View ArticleTime for Darkness and a Time for Light
Darkness is not asked for or sought, yet it lives within our hearts. Sometimes we find ourselves in it because of our choices, the paths in life we chose to take. Other times we find the darkness was...
View ArticleA Parenting Debate and Why I Think Both Sides are Wrong (or Right)
I read a book about ten years ago that shattered my heart. It was about a woman who lost a piece of her memory, and when it came back, she realized her young husband died. I remember shaking as I read...
View ArticleEaster Egg Hunt Failures
I love Easter. It has always been my favorite holiday. To me, it’s about forgiveness, new beginnings, new life, and renewal. It’s always been a deep feeling holiday that extend beyond the bunny and...
View ArticleThe Storms in Life give us Spring
Last week we experienced the first storms of the season. They day went from warm, sunny, and happy to loud, angry, and rainy. Winter has been long gone, but the signs of spring have yet to show. Few...
View ArticleThe Blessings of Grumpy Attitudes and Healing
“Beep! Beep! Beep!” my alarm sings too early on a Saturday morning. Feeling the weight of a nearly sleepless night, I just want to stay in bed. The day is too hard to face and my bed feels wonderful. I...
View ArticleAll You Need is a Pair of Shoes
Exercise is my Zoloft; it’s my sanity. It’s not my favorite thing to do, but I’m addicted to the wonderful feeling I get when I’m done. I have a love/hate relationship with it, but I always come back...
View ArticleLiving for Today
The other day, I held my two month old nephew for a couple of hours. I breathed in his beautiful baby smell, smiled at his coos, bounced him when he was fussy. I loved his soft baby skin, and his big...
View ArticleTo the One who Passed Away, I Miss You
To the One who Passed Away, I honestly never thought I would have to live without you. When the day came that you left, I couldn’t believe how at peace I felt about your eternity. I knew you were in a...
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